A very dear friend of mine has a brilliance with word-play. In a recent conversation, the term 'spiritual emergency' came up, and she said, "Emerge and See."
Similarly, in a conversation not long before, I read the word 'nowhere' as 'now here'. Little signs of a mind-shift taking place, like turning to the clock at the exact moment that double or triple digits are on the digital read-out.
Emerge and See. Now Here.
These seem clues to the time we're living in, or rather, clues to navigating, surviving, and perhaps even thriving into these times. A new way of being is required for a ride that seems much kinder than a drag through the cactus patch of resistance to change.
I could hardly believe that two months, more, had passed since my last entry here. I've written in my other blogs and email newsletter but this, the portal and theme and blog that gives voice to and awakens most the themes of the Beloved in my heart, has rested dormant for awhile.
After a moment of self-chastising and an impulse towards analyzing it, I found myself smiling.This is a 'Kairos Moment' -- an example of life in the Via Feminina -- at its best, much aligned with the descriptions of Shakti's cycles of creative action and creative rest.
Periods of going within, periods of seeming fallowness and dormancy, times of creative incubation rather than creative expression, and times when Life takes you elsewhere, always teaching and deepening -- are very much Feminine.
Going quiet to await the next surge of intuitively guided inspiration -- that then takes wings through the activa of expression -- is part and parcel of the Feminine Way.
Letting Life lead you out of the head and its penchant for intellectual knowledge (aka 'book learning') and into the messy, real-deal experiential learning required for actual gnosis, this too is Feminine.
This is so very different than the hyper-Activa way of being that I'd erred towards for much of my adult life, having learned earlier that the Masculine way of logic, analysis, willing things into being (whether they were wise or well-timed or not), 'thinking it through', and 'being productive' ('idle hands are the Devil's work') was rewarded while the ways of the Via Feminina were most assuredly not 'okay', much less valued.
The journey toward re-membering has not been an easy one; nor did I enter that part of my journey willingly or without resistance. But when the Mother calls, one goes whether they want to or not. And in the 'going' we're initiated and remade.
Now, the Feminine Way is -- after much thrashing, angst, and unlearning -- slowly beginning to seem natural, more predominant, though I can feel that old Activa Addiction lurking near.
As I think back, even during those 'busy, busy willing days', I see that through all of the hefty to-do lists required of 'productivity' and demonstrating that you're busy (and thus important and successful), the few things on that hefty list that were truly effective and successful were the ones that emanated from the Feminine -- my intuition, or a dream, or the spaciousness provided by meditation.
Even then, She was present, trying to call me from struggle and busyness to Grace. What a wild ride that's been!
These days, the Way of Grace calls to me persistently, as a deep yearning that feels like something I remember, somewhere deep in my cellular and soul memory, and so deeply wish to experience again.
Having spelunked the initiation path to the Feminine through the Dark Night of the Soul, I'm becoming aware that the wisest, truest, and most graceful action comes from the incubation time, from the Via Feminina. From there, we emerge and see.
And hearing Kali's thunder, I'll hasten to save this entry now. Perhaps I'll revisit it later, or maybe a new entry will call.
Blessings on the Way,
Jamie
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